HI!
I've been having a really silly day today.
maybe its carrying over from last night...
It was just one of those mornings where youre like...oh boy...Here we go!
i was gonna go into it but i decided against it.. "a fool vents all his feelings but a wise man holds them back"
so anyway. 2 weeks ago i competed at my home gym's climbing competition.
after 8 sustained hours of climbing problems rated v6 and higher, my tips were way beyond shredded, my muscles are limp, and i was out of energy.
the only reason i was still climbing is because a good friend of mine just got there after he got off work.
so there was a "v7" probably more of a 6, that i sent earlier that day that had a deadpoint throw from a left hand crimp and a right hand pinch to a font
this hold...lol.
in the past, no matter what direction its facing, ive felt my wrist dislocate on it while trying to gain some form of grip. it doesnt happen all the time, but it has happened.
now, i did the throw, felt my wrist dislocate...didnt shake it out or anything, just dead hanged, campus matched, and campused up left hand with right hand still on the hold to the finish hold.
when i came down i knew something was wrong, i moved my wrist and i heard it crack along with feeling a sharp pain in the back of my wrist.
i couldnt move my hand up or rotate it without sharp pain, and i know now that i sprained it. figured that my tendons and ligaments were already overstrained, and when my wrist dislocated, all my weight rested on my ligaments.
a sprain is when you hyperextend the ligaments, usually by falling on it or using a great amount of pressure...
so now ive been resting for the most part. trying to work on my legs...
i climbed "lightly" (under v5) exactly one week after the comp and i think it lengthened my recovery period a bit.
last night, 2 weeks and 2 days from the comp, i went to gsr after i had done some physical therapy the previous night. i had full range of movement in my wrist as well as minimal soreness when i moved it up.
i limited myself extremely to static moves only, and i didnt realize how much ive been relying on dynamic motion until this point.
im probably at most a v2 or v3 climber without dynamic movement. this made me very frustrated, because i felt like a completely different person climbing, i couldnt climb by instinct, and thats pretty much all i have.
i feel like if i climb like this too much, ill lose my ability to read problems correctly.
although for some reason, while i climbed last night, i didnt look at the problems at all, i just tried to onsight everything while being static.
its just very frustrating, i really want to climb again on things that are my limit.
ive been very afraid lately of havting to get surgery or something, i dont think thatll be the case but itll take a little bit more time before im completely healed.
im a little bit more sore today unfortunately. still got full motion fine, but i gotta ice it when i get home from class.
now. i know in time itll heal back completely and ill be back trying my hardest and pushing the limits of whats possible for me...im just very impatient!
i realized that this morning.
my flat iron is broken and you have to wind it up in order for it to turn on.
this time it took 15 minutes of me trying to wind it up, and it didnt work. each minute i got more and more frustrated, until i ran out of time to leave for school and i actually started praying "GOD PLEASE TURN THIS ON NOW!"
thats when i kinda just stopped, and looked at the silly situation i was in.
the word, "NOW" really hit me. maybe i havent even fully realized this until just now as im writing this.
everything has to happen NOW for me. i want everything NOW. i am super impatient on everything just because i cant see what God's doing in my life on a day to day basis.
why cant i just accept circumstances as they happen and praise God anyway?
probably because im trusting in my own plans.
in the process im hurting myself. making myself frustrated, delaying my wrist recovery...
i dont know. in fact im going to stop writing this post.
I'm going to try to hear from God. I'm talking way too much lately
